Chemotherapy, a mixed blessing.
Thanks for sharing, Wink.
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I am alive today because of it so for that I cannot complain. But ask anyone who has had to undergo Chemo what it is like and most (myself included) will tell you death is less painful than Chemo. It is a mind altering drug that "messes" with your mind as much - if not more - than your body.
There is just no way to put into words what it is like to have your body taken over by Chemo. I knew I had to take an extra second, or two, to pause and reflect on what I was going to sya before I said it so I would not say something I would regret, But I still did. I lost track of the number of times I snapped at my parents and yelled at them for something truly minor. Thankfully they knew it was the Chemo doing it not me.
Chemo caused me to lose control of my body functions. I would be fine then suddenly I had to poop and without any warning. Sometimes I made it to the bathroom on time. Sometimes I did not. I would take the dog for a walk to the park and I made sure not to eat before I did and would go to the bathroom before I went but many times I had to poop and poop ASAP. I could not make it home. Not proud to admit this but I always brought extra bags and some napkins with me because at least a handful of times I discreetly lowered my pants and had to poop in the park. I cleaned it all up but I had to do that. It also constipated me. If I checked into the hospital on, say, Monday I usually didn't/couldn't poop until around Tuesday or Wednesday..........OF THE NEXT WEEK meaning a good 9-10 days without pooping. Seriously. Chemo did that
