Its not factual is the problem. I had a great week 2 weeks ago went 25-15 went 1-4 on pod. Had a shit week, awful last week 16-27 my first real losing week of the year and somehow got thrown out of a out, now thats a bad beat.
It was awful, i didnt sleep well, eat well etc. There are 2 mortgages, a family and myself who depend on me winning. I did the podcast as a favor to a great friend. If i ever thought let me add some railbird insults, some he doesn't win after week 5 comments I'd never gone out of my way to help anyone.
I have the ucler, the anxiety, the failing relationships every fall, every single fall. I feel every loss and feel no joy in the win. Its a job. Sometimes the job is cruel.
I tell every single detractor the same thing. If you think I dont have a edge at any point get into the booking business, I need the outs and have never slowpayed, stiffed and have loads of gamble.